Okay, here it goes. Blogging …
I’ve been a homeschool mom for over 22 years — over 24 years if preschool counts. But we didn’t officially consider ourselves homeschooling until my firstborn was in kindergarten. That was 1992. We knew God was leading us to home educate our children, but it was such a new idea… a strange idea to most. We set out with few resources and little support.
Facing me every day was my fear of failure. Fear of my inabilities to properly prepare my children in what they needed to succeed in this world. My fear of failure was huge. But one thing gave me hope. It was a promise from the LORD.
All your children shall be taught by the LORD, and great shall be the peace of your children. (Is. 54:13)
I hung on to this promise over the years. When I felt like quitting, the LORD often reminded me of His promise.
Still, oftentimes I felt defeated by this giant of fear of failure.
Once, when I felt especially discouraged, the LORD corrected me. I came down with a very painful sore throat. In seeking the LORD for His healing touch, He brought me to a passage in His word. “Their throat is an open tomb.” Ps. 5:9. The Holy Spirit convicted my heart.”Death and life are in the power of the tongue.” He told me that I was speaking death to my homeschooling. My throat was an open tomb. I repented of my attitude and words of death that I had been speaking about my homeschooling. And the LORD healed me. Instantly. My horrible sore throat was gone.
Over time, I chose to agree with what His word says instead of agreeing with my own negative thoughts of defeat… thoughts about my homeschooling, thoughts about health, thoughts about life. Agreeing with His words.
After 22 years of homeschooling, I can see the LORD’s faithfulness. He has been faithful to lead and guide — to provide opportunities for my children. He has taught them. And taught me. And when we keep our eyes on Him, great is our peace.